I have OCD surrounding leaking bodily fluids, primarily urine, that has absolutely wrecked my life. In any case where I can't check for concrete evidence, I feel a sensation that I'm leaking urine. I also have actual pelvic floor dysfunction (which I am actively working on), which leads to the possibility of the leakage being real, and it has been real in the past. This, compounded with my pre-existing OCD around bodily fluids, has driven me absolutely nuts for the past few months to a point where I have developed a checking ritual and basically refused to leave my house.
I have thrown away so many pieces of underwear and clothes already. I tried pads, but realized it made my obsession worse when it's not true 99% of the time, so I don't rely on them anymore.
I just want to be able to go out and take a simple walk without having to constantly worry about leakage. If anyone has had a similar experience or has advice, it would greatly help.