Dear N,
I know I have apologised for what I did and you even forgave me, but you didn't close the door on us but you also didn't open a path ahead.
I hope your thoughts are full of me as mine are full of you. We had the right thing at the wrong time. Neither of us are ready for the feelings that our connection brings. I never really understood when people said you know when you know when you meet the love of your life. Until I met you, and suddenly I understood.
And as much as I try to convince myself you didn't feel the same your over reaction to my small little mistake showed that you had feelings for me you didn't expect.
Our ending was needed, we both have so much more self work to do but this gut feeling that you are meant for me has never gone away. Even though I have tried to scrape it out of my soul. That the next time our paths cross we will be ready for what our connection brings. So while I won't be waiting for you and you won't be waiting for me. I will leave that door open in hopes that one day you will walk through it.
From A