u/Ainojw

TW: inappropriate behavior with a child.

I've always thought this was weird but don't know where this fits. My mom would share details about her sex life, saying how she loves sex and can't live without it, when i said i wasn't interested in it (because she made me feel disgusted) she said how I'll love it too one day and that I'll change my mind. She also would say how i had a very sexy body and figure and that men would love my sexy body and curves, i was 10 and maybe 8 too.

This might be normal but she would walk fully naked around the house often, saying that we have the same and that there's nothing wrong with it, i don't know how a good parent looks so idk what's weird and what's not.

Now i hate my body and hate to think a man would find it sexy because of what she would say and it's also partially reason why i can't have sex or romantic partner.

I don't remember faces at all, just conscious thoughts I've had like "her eyes are very light blue" so i tend to not recognize people I've known for a short period of time, but after a while i recognize them because i consciously pay attention to anything distinctive. (Although sometimes i still forget who they are...)

My question is, is this part of aphantasia? Because i know it can happen because of trauma and i already developed aphantasia because of trauma lol, just curious.