u/Ailre

I don't believe in wearing makeup and jewelry outside unless I'm in an enclosed space, around family, and etc so that is not an option for me.

I've acknowledged that I look average at best and struggle with the fact that I have a harder time looking nice because unfortunately, I don't have the natural beauty that the majority of the hijabis in my community have. And when I do manage to look good then I attribute it because my clothes are what look nice, not I.

I have to be very strategic about how I style my hijab, when taking my picture and even having a rough time wanting to proceed with talking to a potential spouse because I fear I'm not as attractive as any other sister my potential other could end up with.

I understand that the hijab isn't supposed to make you feel amplified in beauty, but I want to be content with myself and feel that I am presentable. It's hard when I see others talk about how easy adjusting their mindset was or how easy it is being a hijabi when alhamdulilah they're conventionally atttactive.

I just want to find a way to make peace with myself, I don't have the usual black "baddie" features (full lips, button nose, prominant face, curvy figure, strong makeup, edges) either so I just don't know what to do with myself.

I can at least say that I'm grateful that I don't feel jealousy towards my friends, it's more that these insecurities manifest in me beating myself down.

Any advice on how to combat these feelings would be wonderful, jazakallahu khair.