This is somewhat a success story. My sp broke up with me, last December. We kept contact for a few months up until the beginning of March.
I manifested a lot during the month that has passed. I listened to subs, journaled everyday, affirmed and worked on my self concept. Yet I still know my self concept needs work and am trying every day to better it.
Then suddenly I just stopped with the journaling and listening to subs and just affirmed now and then when my thoughts wavered. I felt really calm and at ease. I didn’t feel like I needed it.
A few days passed and I messaged his mum about something. It was a nice message but not meant in a way to get him to reach out. Simply just a quick check in with her and to send my condolences about a relative who died. Then a few hours later I get paragraphs from my sp. Saying how he loves me, is so stupid for leaving me and hopes I can forgive him one day. He had a rough patch with the girl he had been dating and doesn’t see it going anywhere and she never will compare to me and no one else will.
We called and talked for days. Then I felt a shift, and I genuinely wasn’t trying to manifest it, but something felt different. He was cold and distant. He admitted he has resolved with the girl and is seeing her again. He said he will come back if he can realise that he can offer me the world but doesn’t want to break my heart again so can’t risk dating me again.
It was like everything went backwards. I had a moment of having everything that I had manifested. We talked about marriage and children and how he hopes to have them with me and be with me. Then it changed.
I don’t know whether this is a test, me being at fault, or what, but I’m left stunned. I am pleased I got him but the manifestation didn’t stick. My affirmations are “sp is in love with me and we are so happy together. I am so loved and get everything that I want”. However I don’t have what I want yet. I know it will come but what is going on?