How do I stop.
Whenever i’m sober I will argue until i’m dead that I don’t have a problem because I surround myself with people that have the same interests as me so I just brush it off. But when I’m drunk, I know I have a problem. When that last beers enters my hand i’m thinking “i’m not messed up enough, how can I further this intoxication.” If I don’t have more or a way to get more, i’ll just smoke weed. (Which I also have a problem with but it’s actually getting a lot better) I’m drunk rn. Which is why i’m writing this. Who knows if i’ll delete it when I sober up or completely ignore it because i’ll think wtf was I doing. But I need to stop. It’s heavily interfering with my life. Can anybody, anybody, please give me some advice. I’m scared of AA because that means admitting the truth which I can’t do. I’ve been to rehab 3 times and clearly haven’t learned my lesson. I’m literally begging for help. And I really hope sober me won’t ignore this and will listen to any advice given.