To start things off, I like my job. I think my intended role is purposeful and that I'm able to make a difference. And for long stretches of my job, I either got trained with a clear goal in mind or did work that helps people in their lives and is gonna make it easier for them to help others.
But now I got reassigned to an administrative position. It's a temporary thing and I know it will pass, but currently, I just... don't have anything to do. What little tasks I have aren't fulfilling and could be done by someone with only fractions of my job training. Attempts to get out of there and get somewhere where I can at least help a little were denied. And as an observer within this administration, it's so incredibly easy to see where so many problems I faced in the years before came from. People who spend more time handing responsibilities to others, rather than just doing the work they're supposed to do. Miscommunication. Personal rivalries and office gossip. And I am sure this temporary posting isn't representative for my job as a whole, but it's still quite jarring.
The money I earn feels entirely undeserved. At the same time, I need the money because of my responsibilities to my family. And as I said, I overall love my job. But currently, it just feels like sitting there, waiting for the time to be over.
Today, one project I got - as little as it was, with as little responsibility as I got in it - was just cancelled and I don't know how to spend my time the next few weeks.
Meal is chicken ginger noodle soup with spinach.