This might be long. Used gpt for structure and English.
I was in a relationship for around 4 years. Then she wanted to break up, and we ended things. At that time, I tried a lot to stop it...I cried, begged, and everything...but it still ended. This happened around 10 months back.
Since then, we were in no contact. Earlier we were in different cities, but now my job is in the same city as hers. I had gone back home because WFH was allowed, but now that I’m back here, all these thoughts have become stronger. Even before, I used to think about her, but being in the same city makes it worse.
Recently, I lost control and texted her after a long time, and as expected, I regretted it.
I really don’t know how to move on. I just want to forget her and focus on my life.
There’s also another fear I have. I’m scared that I might end up marrying someone who is not compatible with me. Sometimes I don’t even fully understand what I’m feeling, but deep down I wish she hadn’t left and that we would have gotten married. Life would have been simpler.
Now I don’t have the courage to invest so much time and energy in someone again. I’m also scared....what if I do everything again and the same thing happens?
I just feel stuck and confused right now. Please help poor fellow🛐
TL;DR:
Was in a 4-year relationship that ended 10 months ago. Still struggling to move on, especially now that I’m in the same city as her. Recently broke no-contact and regretted it. Feeling confused, low, and scared to invest in someone again. Also worried about ending up with the wrong person in the future.