Lately I’ve been feeling just awful, I’m barely getting any sleep and even if I do get enough hours I just feel worse and end up taking longgg naps, I’ve just been laying in bed all day because I can’t get up even if I want to I just can’t make myself get up, and I’ve just been feeling numb.
And basically all the other signs of a depressive episode and I’ve been feeling like this for two months now, but everytime I hang out with my friends it’s like a break in the routine and I feel better. Like I’m actually having fun and enjoying my time with them, but then when I get home or we’ve been with eachother a while I just start to feel sad again and start thinking about everything.
I want to get a proper diagnosis for Major Depressive Disorder or whatever this is but this just immediately makes me feel like I’m faking everything. I guess like I said earlier I’m just wondering if this is still depression if I can enjoy myself for a couple of hours?