I know you have great respect for your religion and you love your kids, but for the love of all that is holy, leave your man. He is breaking you down bit by bit and might as well be the fifth child he has been begging for. I know you are too deep in it to see it, but he doesn't respect you.
He knows you are out of his league and instead of cherishing you as a partner he is tearing you down little by little. Each thing on its own might not seem like a red flag to you but when you add it all up, ma'am.
You deserve to be heard. To be able to have tough conversations. To have someone who can be in the trenches with you. Who can step in and take over without you having to give him a list like he is a damn babysitter and not a father. You need someone who will be silly with you and be your partner and remind you that while you are a Mom you are still you a whole human.
Please. I don't think I have ever begged someone to listen to the redditors and re-evaluate the situation they are in.
Sincerely,
A person that just wants the best for you.