u/Aggravating-Phase951

Basically what the tittle says. My period is abt 3-4 weeks late and I can’t get a test (everywhere near me has them locked up) Ive been throwing up most mornings and my stomachs been really hurting idk what to do.
Idk when this pregnancy happened as me and my bf have never used any contraceptives (I genuinely thought I was infertile bcus I had cancer and was told I wouldn’t be able to have kids)
Idk what to do I have maybe $3 to my name cant get a job for the life of me and I smoke so damn much like even if I wanted this child it wouldn’t be healthy whatsoever (for clarification i don’t want this child im still a child myself) and as I said I live in Texas so I can’t even think to get an abortion
And I can’t talk to any “trusted adult” bcus they will all tell my grandma (who im living with) and shes already said multiple times if I ever got pregnant I’d get kicked out (and she kicked my mom out when she got pregnant with me so I believe her) i don’t know what to do im so fucking terrified
Is there anyway I can safely got rid of this thing at home (preferably painless but from what I’m reading thats not possible) im sorry for the long rant I just haven’t been able to talk to anyone abt this except my bf