Hi everyone my situation is really weird but i hope you guys have some inputs.
I think for most of my high school life I had this friend lets just call her "x" right, we were tight and all and i was always fascinated with her because she was just genuinely a very very attractive girl and everyone felt so. I had realised at the start of our friendship that nothing would be possible between us ever because thats just how our dynamic was. We didnt meet everyday because she was in a different school but we were decent friends, so i never really gave it a thought about being with her because she was at a different level. During those 3 years i had this girl in my school lets say "y", I connected with her really well and we had similar interests and I was happy when i talked to her and the conversation could just go on forever, and I am 100% sure that I was in love with her and lets just say the feelings were not mutual, at least thats what i think. (she had feelings for me for a bit according to her). Whenever i had to talk about "y" i used to talk about her to "x" because she was my friend and nothing more right, so she knew everything including how obsessed i was with the girl in my school for 3 years. Once it finally hit me that i am too stuck on "y" I started hanging out with "x" a lot and we just had this conversation one night about how i never thought i would be able to be with her since we met and it ended up in her telling me that she had feelings for more for a few months. (I HAD BEEN TALKING ABOUT THE GIRL FROM MY SCHOOL FOR YEARS). A month later we started (me and y) dating which I admit i did in a rush, its been around 6-7 months since we started dating and school is over and I am moving abroad for college in august. I feel like a really bad person because as much as I do like this girl I feel like breaking up with her and here is why
- We dont share the same interests at all, Im so sure im over "x" but sometimes i compare this girl to her and realise that the conversations just dont flow well and we have no common interests. Infact "y" doesnt have interests at all.
- Im going to college and wer going to be in different sides of the world, and As much as i would wanna make it work it probably wont work because even long term, she wants to stay in a different country and i want to stay in a different country. Her parents dont even know about me because shes not allowed to marry outside her religion and shes not allowed to date.
- "y" is the nicest soul ever, she has been nothing but a loving girlfriend who has always put me in front of everyone else around her and I just feel like im a horrible guy for even having thoughts like breaking up with her even though she hasnt done anything
I want to know if I should breakup with her, Is it normal for me to compare her to the other girl and realise that we dont have that spark? or have I seen too many movies and romm comms to create an unrealistic Idea of how a relationship is supposed to be?
I would really like some advice, if anyone has questions or wants to know more to give advice please just ask.
Thank you in advance