I am new to this community on Reddit… haven’t actually been on Reddit in quite a while in general but I need someone to talk to.
I grew up in a military family. Dad was in for a long time and my husband is active duty. This is not my first PCS or deployment but this one is hitting me very hard. I am keeping this as vague as possible for personal reasons. My kiddo and I are both struggling. It is hard for me to connect due to my work schedule. So having and maintaining friendships is hard for me. I have tried to find a remote position so I can be available when I am needed but I haven’t been able to find anything. Long story short, I feel like I am failing miserably. I have no one to lean on and the closest person to me (other than my husband) that is helpful or understanding is all the way across the country. I am worried I am going to lose my job while I am trying to balance my kiddos health issues by myself.
I just need someone to talk to so I am not feeling so down and crappy about myself. I hardly get to talk to my husband right now and when I do, I don’t want to cry about everything that is happening at home. I am worried about my husband, worried about my son, worried about my job, worried about my mental health, worried I am not maintaining the house good enough. Sad because I miss my husband, am not as available as I’d like to be for my son, burnt out because I have a high stress job. I don’t sleep very much because I am up waiting to see if I’ll get a phone call from my husband and am constantly checking on my kiddo when he is asleep. Can’t eat as much because I am so stressed out. I am in therapy but 1 hour every few weeks is not very helpful. I just need a little extra support and don’t know where else to look.