Just wanted to share how I feel in my transition
So I'm 38 years old and I started my transition in 2021, which makes that I've been on T for a good 5 years now, yet I feel like I'm very much stuck in my journey to transition.
For a good while I've been a bit overweight, nothing too mayor but enough to give me curves in places where I don't want them. I have not had chest surgery and instead wear binders, but I hope that by losing some weight that my chest will reduce some as well. I don't feel a need to be completely flat, but if it were less visible under clothing I'd be happy.
So a couple of weeks ago I started to pay more attention to my diet and I'm attempting to do some workouts at home with some dumbbells I've purchased. I'm in a kcal deficit and I hope this will really help to get rid of my round hips and maybe even have my jawline show again at some point.
I used to be thin, until I got more into a depression and from there I slowly gained more and more.
What doesn't help is that after all the time I've been on T, that I'm still not passing as a man. I got called ma'am recently and it hurt on a level I can't really describe. I feel as if at this part in my transition I'm at the maximum amount of change I can have, so it feels hopeless. I'm still not able to grow proper facial hair in the places I want it the most, like on my chin an mustache.
I wonder if things will change if I continue to work on my health and fitness, and if there is still a chance that I will one day pass.