u/Afraid_Battle7446

Basically what the title says. I have severe depression, along with BPD with psychotic features and a laundry list of other things. I got kicked out of the place that was providing me care for several years (due to attempting to take my life), now I am left with no therapist and no psychiatrist. Only medicine that barely works. I went to the AAC, and after a 2 month wait they got me to see a psychiatrist. I talked to her, and she said that I was too young for the s*icide (sorry for the censorship, I don't know if that word will get this flagged) prevention program at the AAC, since I'm 18 and not 19. She referred me to CART, who have already rejected me twice, so I guess I'll wait to hear back from them. The thing is, she told me that if I want to be able to see a psychiatrist in the future, I cannot have a private therapist. She also told me that she can only see me one more time. I genuinely don't know what to do, I'm too old for all the youth programs but too young for all the adult programs. This whole process is so slow. The hospital is the LAST place I want to be, but I know if I don’t get some sort of care soon that I'll end up there. My symptoms are completely and utterly unmanageable, I can barely do anything. I feel stupid for putting all of this on the internet, but I'm so lost as to what I can even do. Are there any good mental health programs for 18 year olds?

I saw a new psychiatrist today, and she reccomended that if the increase in my antipsychotic doesn't help me that she'll prescribe me Trintellix. Been on a laundry list of medicines, all of them didn't do much, aside from Abilify which keeps me out of (mild) psychosis. I still feel miserable, I can barely do anything at all because my symptoms are so crippling...anyone else with MDD and BPD have a good experience with this drug? I am really at my wit's end.