u/Affectionate_Two591

Hey guys, I'm a international student study in Australia now.

I've been taking a medicine because of bipolar 2 disorder since 3 years ago. I determined to study aboard 1 years ago to get out my ordinary depressive environment and set my entire life style from zero. At first, life in Australia was not bad. I made a new friends and and enjoyed campus life learning new subject and English. My mental condition was very good about first four months in there. However, things goes bad after that. Understanding college course was going to tough and my English skills was not improved gradually even as times goes flow. Maintaining social relationship was also getting difficult. I had no idea how to approach friends and socialize with them since I've never made a friends in entire my life. These kinds of uncomfortable situation cause me to stay alone growing depressive mind and feeling of isolation. Whenever, I feel bad I started to drink alone and overdose prescription drugs. I drunk four bottles of Whisky or Vodka at per month and overdosed at least once a month to get out depressive mind.

I'm in my country now to spend vacation and adjust my drugs since it is not effective my current condition. When I met doctor few days ago, she said I need to be hospitalized because of my self harm and mindset. But I have to take a semester off when I determine to be hospitalized or focus on adjusting medication. Also, I'm worry about whether decision to stay make me harder to maintain friendship in Australia since I can not meet them several months.

Additionally, there are some financial problems will be occur if I made that decision and I'm afraid of this decision treated myself loser who failed to socialize and adjusting new precious lifestyle. Also, I have no face to meet my parents even though they invest their retirement plan and support.

Do I need to focus on recovery in my country..?

For your information, getting treatment in Australia is realistically difficult some reasons.