u/Affectionate_Bite130

Me [F21] and my boyfriend [23] have been together for almost 10 months. Our relationship started off very well we work at the same place however never spoke up until we started dating. Anyways, we were hanging out one day and he got added to a groupchat and I noticed he had another female co workers number saved on his phone. This immediately rang alarm bells because I knew he found her attractive because he literally hinted it at me during one of our conversations after saying a lot of guys like her. I remember he once went on a 10 minute rant about how much he despised her and how they could have been good friends but he thought she was too loud and obnoxious which already was giving why are you thinking about her so deeply. In addition to this before we started dating I had a feeling that they may have been feelings there as i expected they both found each other attractive. I remember stalking his account before we were dating and he followed her other work page. When I asked him about it if couldn’t not remember when and why he had her number saved on her phone which I immediately thought was so weird. Mind you I’m kinda friends with this girl we occasionally hang out and he would always ask how it was and if there was anything new with her. She recently started a small business and he immediately followed the account and I don’t even follow the account. He claimed that that may have been a reason he had her number saved because he wanted to purchase something for the both of us. Which I was thinking why not just ask me to ask her. On top of all of this he’s consistently in her likes while we were dating and only stopped when I brought it up recently. Now there are more suspicious that I could mention but the reason I’m debating whether or not he has ulterior motives is because our relationship is so strong. He’s thoughtful always present, takes initiative to hang out and go on dates, states he wants to be with me forever and get married and that we are soulmates etc. he puts so much effort into us honestly more then I do. To make my anxieties worse they work almost the exact same shifts all the time so there’s proximity there. I brought all this up to him and he basically called me crazy and that there were no bad intentions behind anything. He even wrote me a love letter to prove he loved me and only me. I feel so sick whenever I think about it I’m starting to think breaking up is the best solution. Do you guys think this is early relationship anxieties or has anyone experienced similar. Please help!!