u/Affectionate_Big3217

I’m so exhausted by my own brain. When I have a work deadline, I can’t function or relax until it’s dead. I’ll go into a 10-hour hyperfocus, forgetting to eat or even use the bathroom, just to get the task out of my head. It’s not even productivity at that point; it’s just me trying to kill the anxiety of the unfinished task.

But the moment I need to do something simple like shower or pack a bag? I’m paralyzed. I’ll sit there for hours feeling like I’m pushing a boulder uphill. It’s like my speedometer is broken because I'm either sprinting at 100mph or stuck at 0. There is no middle ground and it IS draining.