Its been almost a year
Its been almost a year and I still think about her. I kinda flip flop from missing the comfort of having my best friend with me all the time, to missing the fantastic sex that we had, to being pissed off that she made me hate her so much that I didnt even want to fuck her.
Idk Im more pissed off than anything, I regret never swinging back, I regret never breaking her things, I regret never saying the awful things I always held back while she tried to pin point every insecurity I had, the attempt always made me laugh but the sentiment behind the words pissed me off.
Like you absolute child, how the hell are you going to actively try and hurt my feelings when I dont bend over backwards for you, but then flip the fuck out on me for not saying good morning to you nicely enough. Always the fucking double standard.
God damn im just mad about the whole relationship. Ive been through the enjoying the calm phase, I got sad, then I felt indifferent for a little while, now im just pissed off. Its been almost a year, when can I stop being so bothered by this. How long does it take?