u/AffectionateLaugh728

How many innocent babies and kids does someone need to kill to be called evil? If I drown a baby am I evil? How many babies drown in the flood god caused? If I was a judge and I orders a baby to die because the babies father broke a law? God killed kings David's baby because David did a sin. Would it be good if a man cheated on his wife, should he wife be raped? God did just this to David's wives. David cheated so god caused his wives to be raped. Is this moral to anyone here? Please let me hear anyone defend killing a baby or causing women to be raped.

My wife died 2 weeks ago from multiple myeloma. It was east to take care of her. I was determined to do all i could for her and never complain and I have done it. All the nights I needed to get up was fine for me. But when the time came to get her morphine every 2 hours just about killed me the first day. I knew I would never talk to her again. I cried every time I had to do it.

I was adjusting her pillow and I thought I had hurt her.

I lost it and was crying like a baby thinking I hurt her at all even a little. We spread her ashes Saturday. The house is quiet now. I do not mind it. She was very talkative and I wasn't. It is too soon to know what I will do. But I miss her a lot. I do not miss the dumb questions she would ask me. I hear her from time to time. I know it is just my brain. I enjoy the bed to myself. But I would give that up again. I will miss her for a while. But will never forget 32 years of marriage. Thank you wife for the good years. But you could had been more patient and less jealous. I know I could had done better by listening more.

I hope you get my new normal going soon. Spent time painting. Something I couldn't do as much because i was into that so many hours a day. I not longer have a buddy to watch fraiser and ghosts with. No one to make Coffee. I will keep the humming bird feeders full. I will make sure the wind chimes are taken in during bad weather. But the extra tv is mine now and I will move it where I want it. I miss you going shopping and you let me stay home. Now I have to put up with idiots in town.miss you so much.