u/Affectionate-Piece15

So far in FO4 I've almost finished a Melee only run, only takin forever cause i'm mixing it as a casual run as well meaning I'm just doin everything in the game but with melee only but it also got me wondering what challenge runs I'd be able to do while limited to no good mods since I play Xbox. And by challenge run, I'm wanting to do something that actually requires me to plan out things, how to get whatever items while limited to the challenge rules, etc. not somethin like pipe weapons only and things like that. Any ideas?

When I was a kid, I'd say around 8-12, I'd be more or less, scared of the thought of what happens after death, and afraid of the fact that I don't know what's after. I wouldn't have panic attacks but the thoughts would scare me to the point I'd grip at my head, toss and turn just wanting the thoughts to go away, but that was years ago, I'm 19 now and I was just sitting here DMing a friend, laughing about whatever and just got a sudden hit of pure panic and dread, that same feeling from when I was younger but this time worse. I dropped to the floor on my knees, curled myself and started begging for it to "stop, go away, and shut up" which I've never done before. It didn't last long but it felt like forever. Can anyone please help me with this, why is it suddenly happening again, why is it worse now, how can I fix it...