I’ve been dating my boyfriend for 7 months. We got together pretty quickly—about 2 months after I ended things with my ex, and about 2 months after he ended a 7-month situationship. Even though it happened fast, I’ve never felt a connection like this before. He’s my first love, and he treats me really well, which is why this situation is so hard for me.
Recently, I’ve been struggling with trust. I noticed him looking at his ex situationship’s social media, and when I asked him about it, he denied it at first before eventually admitting it—but he still tried to justify it. Another time, I saw that he liked a video on Twitter that made me uncomfortable, and when I brought it up, he denied that too and unliked it. That pattern of denying things I clearly saw is what’s been bothering me the most.
What’s really affecting me now is that he liked a video that may be about his past relationship. The video was on tiktok and it said
“When the za is burning your throat but all you see is her sparkling brown eyes and her cute smile she always used to give you.”
It might seem small, but to me it feels significant, especially given everything else. It makes me question where his head and heart really are.
This relationship means a lot to me. He’s not just my boyfriend—he’s also my best friend, and I’ve grown really close to his family. That’s why I feel so conflicted. I don’t want to overreact, but I also don’t want to ignore things that are hurting me or making me feel insecure.