Heyy I need some advice..(TRIGGER WARNING)Grape
I think i might have tore? I was raped 2 weeks ago.
I wanted to wait till marriage so I was virgin and about 2 weeks ago I was raped by my step father. He has been sexualy assaulting me since I was 11 but never with penetration but that changed 12 days ago. I haven't told anyone about the abuse ever. And I'm not going to ruin my family by doing so.
Because of that this is the only place I can ask questions. He has a large d*ck and he didn't use any lube or anything but he did use a condom at first he couldn't get it in at all even though he used A LOT of force it hurt really bad but eventually he got it in it was extremely painful and I bleed quite a bit. When I was finally able to get him off me by bitting his hand really hard he left to "clean upp his hand" and that was it I bleed a little bit for around 24 hours but then it stopped. I tried to feel down there today and it feels quite uneven and kinda bumpy so I think I might have tore? And was wondering if I'm ruined down there forever or will it go back to normal?. I have never been to a gyno should I go and how do I go about it if so?😕