u/Adventurous_Rate_527

This may be a hot take and please don’t attack me but I don’t like Elise all that much. Her audacity to sleep around with 4 men and get jealous when they even look in another girls direction? And then when she’s mated she expects these men to still want her and refuses to let them move on. Maybe the Reverse harem thing just isn’t for me cause this is my first experience with it. I love all the kings and I don’t hate Elise as a whole I just think my real life morals aren’t letting me enjoy this series to its full extent.

Edit to add: I also hate that she salutes everyone it just feels cringey to me

I’m talking to someone new. I didn’t think I would be able to feel something with someone else. It’s relieving and scary at the same time. I’m glad I can see a way out of this pattern I have with you but I’m also scared of letting it go. I’ve been missing you a lot lately. It’s like the closer I get to someone else, the more panic sets in that I’m getting further from you.

I think you hate me anyways. The way you’ve been treating me isn’t fair. I would never treat you that way. I still wanted to wish you a happy birthday today even after everything. I had it typed up but I wouldn’t have sent it. I got the hint these past few weeks. Now I’m moving on. Happy birthday anyways

WHAT?? Talk about plot twist. I am mind blown rn

I had a pretty rocky relationship end a couple months ago. We were on and off for years with toxic patterns. He has hurt me, lied to me, had avoidant tendencies which made me anxious. But he was also (for the most part) very caring, attentive, did things for me that no man ever has. We were best friends and there were things about him that are hard to find In most men.
I have left him multiple times because of his behavior and the way he responds to my emotions. However, this time he left me in the middle of the night while I was in a bad spot mentally and trying to connect with him.

I have moments where I’m happy and I feel like I’m moving on and some days I really struggle with it. The problem is, I have to see him every day. He acts like I don’t exist, storms out and hides somewhere if we’re in the same room. The past week I’ve been struggling with feelings of missing him and almost like withdrawal symptoms. I hate seeing him unhappy around me, I hate that we cant at least be friends. I know we’re better off apart and I need to move on. I guess I’m just not sure how to stop these feelings and holding onto the good parts of him even after all the pain I’ve been through because of him. How can I stop missing him and wanting him while having to be around him every day? This sounds so pathetic reading it back but it feels good to get it out.

I’m so mad at you and I go most days feeling like I’m over you and doing a good job with moving on. Sometimes it creeps back in though, like today. I miss your company and attention. I miss having my boring day broke up with visits from you. I miss the way you used to smile at me. Now we’re just strangers in forced proximity. I’ll let myself sit in this sadness and longing for today. I’ll be okay again tomorrow but for now, I miss you.