I don't know if this will be allowed on this sub reddit but I still need advice so please excuse me, it's my first time posting.
I(25m) had a rough childhood. basically, my stepfather and his brother (so like my step-uncle?) sexually and physically abused me from the age of 10 till i was 15 and it mostly happened in the toilet. So now I'm obviously traumatized and I have an issue that I'm working on with a therapist: I have an aversion to toilets and I only use them if I need to take a dump. And i only poop like twice a week. But if I need to pee, then I'll pee in a bottle. I throw these bottles away, I promise I'm not nasty, just traumatized.
Anyway, I told my best friend (26m) the whole story and I made him promise not to tell anyone else. He has kept this secret since we were like 20 so I was cool.
Then, Thursday night, he went out drinking with our circle of friends. I couldn't go because I had work the next day. He gets sloshed with our friends and tells them i don't use the toilet, I pee in bottles and mason jars and he shows them a picture for proof. One time, I let him take a picture of my urine in a mason jar because it was looking very orange. Thought it was funny at the time, now I regret it. He didn't tell them the reason behind it which idk if it's better or worse.
Now, my friends obviously think I'm disgusting and weird. They also think that when I give them stuff in mason jars, it's one of my pee jars even though they're not. The pee jars stay in the bathroom. My friend apologized but tells me that at least he didn't expose the other part so I should be grateful
How do I go about this because one of my friends is considering uninviting me to her baby shower because of this? Do I explain the whole story? Thank you and please don't be judgemental.