Visited iceland ... and now my life is miserable
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It's very weird right ? I mean iceland is a gorgeous country odnt get mr wrong , looking back at it I had a blast , but here is the thing, all my life I've been dreaming about seeing the northen lights, it was to me a magical experience , and yes they were good but they required so much effort znd after few days it just beocmes a cool thing that's all , as I kept going in iceland and visiter some waterfalls that required alot of money or were too far and yet were just ... waterfalls, something cha get in me all of a sudden , I stopped romanticizing life , I used the be the lower girl , dreamer girl , even just the smell of coffe on a sunny evening would make me delighted , now to me that's just coffe , molecules that I've smelled for so long , the waterfall is just another waterfall , amestersam is just another European city , the buildings r just buildings , and suddenly , nothing is exiting , nothing is worth doing, it made me wonder did I go all the way to iceland just so I can say I did ? Do I even want to travel or just fill an ig story ? And now , all my life feels like , just that , I don't wanna grow till 30 and 40 and 50 , my job feels life it's shoking me bcs that's awhole other issue , I know I have to be gratefull for a job , especially one that pays well , but the worst part is that I feel like I cant land another one and that even if I did time will pass and I'll feel miserable in that one too , I'll feel miserable le no matter what , I've have depression episodes befor but at least in previous ones I still had hope , light at the end of the tunnel that ill be happier once I traveled, or met a significant other , but now , bcs of this , I can't find my light anymore, has anyone experienced thus befor ?