When I had my first baby 2.5 years before my second, I had the most beautiful couple years and loved almost every moment.
When pregnant with my second, I was really excited however once they were born, I instantly missed my first and our time together but those feelings subsided for the most part once the hormones evened out.
I had more issues breastfeeding which ended much earlier than my first baby which was really hard for me to accept. I've really struggled with comparing my first experience to the second. Everything from milestones, time spent playing together and bonding just hasn't been the same.. which was to be expected of course. It makes me feel sad that I had such a joyous time with my first, when it was just us. And I feel guilty that I haven't had that time with my second. It feels like the magic isn't there and it's now been a year. Is that just how it is the second time? I want to enjoy every moment but I just don't know how to shift my mindset.
I don't know what I'm hoping to achieve with this post but perhaps to hear if anyone else has felt this way.