Hello I’ve been my bf for almost 2 years and he has lived with me for about 7 months. A couple months after he moved in I found out he was sending sexual messages on Twitter to onlyfan models. He is obsessed with only fans and constantly calls other girls hot.
A couple months go by and I found out he subscribed to some girls content on Instagram to see if she posted any nudes. I decided to forgive him but I feel like I’m going crazy constantly comparing myself to what he looks at or feeling like im not good enough sexually.
He also changed his Twitter account to private, changed computer password, and I don’t know his phone password so I can’t even check to see if he’s actually changed.
We were in the car going somewhere and he made a comment about a lady in workout clothes saying the leggings hugged her butt. We haven’t had sex in 3 weeks so it triggered me and we started fighting. I asked him if he’s jerking off while I’m away at work since we work opposite schedules. He said he did a couple days ago then changed his story to a week ago.
He also said “why don’t you just break up with me” instead of making me feel better. A week ago, I even tried to initiate sex and nothing happened. I sent him a pic of me in a new bra I got and he says nothing back so I just was feeling like he was back to lusting at porn/onlyfans online again.
Well whenever we got home, he then had sex with me. Then later in the night we were watching wuthering heights which has a lot of sexual content in it and He then had sex with me again. I don’t feel like he actually wanted to have sex with me though. I feel like he only did it because I was complaining about our lack of sex and that the movie made him horny because he’s into degrading and thinks Margot is hot.
I just feel defeated and think the worst about myself. I don’t know if this is worth working on with him. Will his porn use just get worse overtime? I just don’t know what to do.