u/Advanced_Tie4145

I remember once some one wrote to me "koi bhi cse le leta hai" i understand but I was just a new person at that time in this sub 😭

I feel... something. It has been a year (almost). I got accepted to this university and I still remember the day of interview, the wait, the test before the interview, this comment section (which is so wholesome that I couldn't delete the post even though I deleted my account long back).

I remember so many people reached out to me through my dms congratulating me or asking me about advice. Well it has been a year I left two things - NEET as well as this university and rn I'm at a college in my home state.

Life has been a constant game of "what if I really went?" I am here and to be honest I really accepted that it happened because it was what that was supposed to happen.

Idk who will read this but I'm leaving my post here solely out of gratitude as well humbleness of the journey I had last year. I was a dropper and I was so tensed - ofc every dropper is. I remember them asking in the interview "you are a dropper so how will you cope up" and I answered. I remember how happy I was when I got selected and then unfortunately I couldn't go due to reasons I am not sharing - just know that neither transport nor the time supported me in this. Haha! Well I still have some christ photos in my gallery when a "would-be" classmate sent that in a group long back.

Im still grateful because it made me learn a lot. To let go of things that seems wonderful but probably not for you. Remember all that glitters is not gold.

I am trying to be better in my home state and I really hope I make it and also surrounded by people that loves me and live to my full potential.

I'm grateful for the friends I made on the interview day. I remember how under confident I was just because I was a dropper as if that's what my whole identity is. 🫂

I'm just.... grateful. To every experience. The heartbreak, the success, the acceptance and the strength to move on from something i desperately wanted.

I just wanted to meet a lot of like minded people which honestly - i have not met in my home state. I think about how life would've been if I went sometimes now but I used to think about it everyday after I couldn't go.

They were right, the pain actually never fades you just learn to accept to live with it and grow with it till it seems negligible.

What sets me back is opportunities. You won't understand what I am speaking about until you are in my shoes but atleast I tried - what else can I do 🥹

I hope you find what you are truly looking for and I wish the same for me. The me, whom I kept underestimating just because things didn't turn out my way.

So maybe...it is what it is....

Wrote a lot, don't know who will read but I feel a little better. 🍀✨