I feel stupid
I am breaking up with my boyfriend of 3 years. I found out he has a conviction for grooming a child. I’m having a really hard time with this right now. My best friend was convinced by him that I was just ‘having an episode’ so she told him that I discovered him missing from our bedroom in March. I didn’t know that he knew. He started telling people that I couldn’t be trusted and that I was having a mental health crisis. My best friend believed him until I broke up with him mid April.
Now, no one will believe me that he is a convicted pedophile, except my best friend. I don’t know how to deal with this situation. There are so many bad thoughts in my head. I think my kids are safe, but I feel so stupid to have let this man near them. I feel so stupid that I believed years of lies and manipulations, hardly ever suspecting a thing. Most of all, I feel stupid that I imagined people would believe me this time.
How do I even start to recover from this? What is wrong with me that this keeps happening to me?