Haven't been active on this subreddit in a long while but I do have a huge life update. The other day I was suddenly emotional at work because I'm in a bout of depression right now and am also kind of going through a quarter-life crisis. Got off the floor and talked to my mom for a few minutes. Talked to her about where I want to go in life. She asks the usual general questions like how is work going, am I cooking anything, am I going outside and getting exercise, am I interacting with people...and then she asks if I'm going to church.
I tell her no, and she asks me where my faith is at. She had asked me this question before while I was still in college, and before I had lied to her. I knew I couldn't now. I didn't feel like it. I didn't want to.
So I told her the truth and was very gentle about it. I told her I didn't want to make her sad or have her worry about me, that I still believed in doing the right thing and treating people with kindness, but that I haven't believed for a few years (six now, time flies!) because I felt it was best for me to let it go. She took it really well, told me she was still going to pray for me (I told her that was fine because I know she means well, it's just one way of her showing that she loves me), and texted me that she was proud of me after our phone call. Also, I told her I was bi last fall and she took that well too, so now I'm not hiding anything from her anymore.
It feels casual, really, because this is just my life now. But I think about where I was before and how much it took me to get to this point, and I'm amazed at how far I've come. It's a pretty big deal!
I know I'm really lucky and that everyone's circumstances don't match mine. I just wanted to share the good news, and tell anyone who needs to hear it that it does get better : )
anyways back to writing my gay fanfiction lol 😎