There was an incident recently with one of my roommates. I had accidentally opened up their package thinking it was mine. For some context, I had ordered two things and when I received the confirmation of my package being delivered it was of two packages so I thought they were both mine. Well I opened it up saw it wasn’t what I ordered and told my roommate that I opened up her package and I apologized. She was not happy about that at all. She said that she shouldn’t have to come home to open packages. (I just opened the one of her packages that one time). I told why it happened and she said that I still should’ve checked the name on the package. At this point I’m not really understanding how upset she was with me and I asked her about the content in the box because it was unexpected. 100 count of chalk. I was curious. Well she told me it wasn’t any of my business and something else I can’t remember. I still wasn’t really taking any of this that seriously so I message her “girl boo” and went to sleep. I woke up and there’s a dang bible verse on how she felt disrespected in her house and her privacy was violated. Mind you she would constantly barge into my room without a verbal consent to do so. She would be in my business and ask me questions about what I was doing and where I would be going, I’m thinking it’s just out of curiosity and didn’t mind answering these questions. Anyway after reading her message I decided the best way to answer was to say “heard, I apologize”. She liked the message and stopped sharing her location with me and got rid of my location for herself as well.
For some context, I’ve been working on my communication. I’ve had problems with just bottling everything up and never really releasing them. It’s starting to physically manifest though. I get really bad chest pains, as if someone is sitting on my heart, when situations like these happen. It’s been rocky though, I’ve addressed issues when I felt some type of way about it and some where it leads to arguments others where it’s calm. I say this to say I confronted my roommates sister a month before. Her cat kept running into my room when I would leave for work and would close my door so her cat would just be in my room. she didn’t like that. She has anxiety over her cats running away and dying so if she can’t see them she gets really worried. She blamed me about her cat getting into my room and was telling me to go out my way to make sure her cat, doesn’t go into my room after I’m already spraying her cat to stay away and having my room closed all the time. When I confronted her about it, it got loud real fast and hurtful real quick. She told me to stop acting like a child and that we were never cool…I grew up with these people… I hung out with them, weeks on end, when we were kids. I didn’t feel good after that.
Now back to this sister and her package, I wanted to be the bigger person this time and just apologized…again. But it’s been a week and it’s still on my mind. I feel like I didn’t stand up for myself the way I should’ve. There’s so much I’m still feeling about them and how they’re treating me. I really thought I could just get over it because I’m moving out tomorrow but my chest is heavy and eyes are very wet. I need advice on how to move forward.