I’m very scared right now. I’ve been seeing a doctor about some health issues I’ve had for a long time, almost 10 years, and no one checked up on it sooner. My dr thinks it could be PCOS but I won’t know until Monday. All I know is that I have large cysts all up in my ovaries, and I keep getting results on my bloodwork that I don’t understand. Of course me being a hypochondriac I try and look it up and freak myself out more. I start to worry about tumors which is a common cause of some of my levels being high. My grandpa just died of cancer and watching it was horrific. I’m young and am scared to die. I’m worried about what if it is PCOS did I cause it or make it worse? And if so, what do I do now? Will I be okay? It’s worse if it’s not PCOS though, because what could it be? Could I be dying? I haven’t had the best habits, what if I dug my own grave? I’m terrified, I’m so tired but I can’t sleep.
I’ve never had medical issues like this before, just the fear of them. I feel like my worst nightmare is coming true, I can’t function. I cry and space out and I can’t sleep or I sleep too much. I’m so tired.
What helps you guys? I’m trying to keep calm but I’m failing, my anxiety is going haywire and my panic attacks are getting bad. I still have 5 days left until I get either some answers and treatment or to do more testing. I don’t know how I’m going to function in that time.