If i didn’t have a kid i would kill myself right now
i’ve struggled in my life, abusive relationships, cheated on, super insecure, one girl messed with me so bad i didn’t know what to do when we broke up we got back together and then oops we had a kid by accident, i found out she did all the shit when we broke up, fucked like 30 dudes, graphic messages with her and her friends, me and her don’t even have sex like that. messages like “he fucked me so hard i bled everywhere, the sex was great” i wish i didn’t have a kid with her, i feel so stuck and i just want to end it all, my life has sucked so much and has so much pain, i thought it would get better but it never did. my son means everything to me, he is so special and i can’t leave him. but i truly just want to end it all right now, i sit here with a gun to my head just to think about how it would feel. i’m truly so lost.