Told my TBM husband last night I no longer believe in the church
I wasn’t really planning to. It just kind of came up in discussion. He knows I’ve been “struggling”, but this time I was blunt and told him I no longer believed.
He told me he sees no point in being married to me. He said he is going to create a dating profile on an LDS dating site and he wants to keep the house.
Today my daughter mentioned he had changed the password on his phone. I never check his phone but just hearing that made me feel like he now has something to hide.
I am heartbroken and scared.
I work but I don’t get paid much. I did the good little Mormon thing and put my education and career on hold to support him. I finally finished my degree when I had 3 little kids, but after years of not working or working part time I don’t have a lot of earning power. He makes 4x the amount of money I do.
I worked so hard to be a good wife. It seems all I ever was to him was a body to use and a ticket to an imaginary heavenly reward. Now that I can’t walk beside him to his eternal glory he wants to find someone else who will.
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