u/Admirable-Mud7380

i am dark skinned, and my lips are a bit protuded too, so it looks fine when i smile but when i dont its so bad....i find myself ugly too like sometimes i look in the mirror i get absolutely disgusted seeing myself.

i dont post myself anywhere on social media, even while taking family photos, i make excuses by saying i dont like taking photos but the real reason is i am scared that people will look at my ugly face.

even my family members casually pass remarks on me, saying

"accha hai ladka hai, warna shaadi hona mushkil hojata"

once my mother asked my cousin infront of me

"tujhe sharam nahi aati ki tu itta gora hai, smart hai, aur tera bhai aisa hai" hes just 10 years old btw, he said nahi lagta

i have some male irl friends, who i think dont care about my face. so its fine, i still avoid taking photos with them tho, lol.

and about dating i dont think i have any shot at it tbh.

i dont know whats the point of this post but yeah.

people who call themselves atheists but dont have even basic critical thinking still confuse me

like you reject god but still believe in stuff like manifestation, positive/negative energy, nazar, karma etc

and a lot of these people arent even atheists because they actually thought things through, its more like god didnt listen to them so they stopped believing

then the moment something they want happens by coincidence suddenly they will start to believe in god.

yeah its kinda a rant about a friend of mine, very dumb person tbh.

i have 94%ile this year, i procrastinated a lot like a lotttt

i know i can do better in drop year, but the fees is 70k, we come from a okaish welldo to family.

par parents ko kis mu se bolu ki me timepass karta tha padhai ke bajaye end end me, unko lagta hai ki mene padhai kari phir bhi aisi percentile aai hai.

kya vo manenge?, kya bolu yrrr fkkkkk.

i dont know what to do, i really really want to take a drop😭😭😭😭😭😭