So, I’ve always felt bad about calling out of work. I’ve always been able to “do it all”. Not anymore.
Pregnancy has knocked me flat on my back. So, I called out the day after I almost passed out at work due to low blood sugar caused by morning sickness.
Then called out the day after I got home from a trip. Flight was delayed. We landed and then took an Uber home in a storm. And that Uber cost $330 because I got out of the car covered head-to-toe in my own vomit.
Today, I called out. At 1 am, I woke up with abdominal pain and wasn’t able to stand up straight. I brushed it off and went back to bed. Same thing at 3 am and 5 am.
I get up at 6:15 am and sleeping it off didn’t work. I was dizzy with abdominal tenderness and cramping. It wasn’t my usual baseline of uncomfortableness during pregnancy. Something just felt “off” and I could barely walk.
So, I called out. Called my provider. I’m supposed to be drinking 80 oz of water per day. I have a water aversion, so I’m barely hitting 24 oz.
I rested and hydrated. Once I got back up to 32 oz, the cramping subsided and I felt much better. I just feel useless in a way that it was “just” dehydration and that kept me home from work.
But, the abdominal cramping reminded me of my miscarriage less than a year ago. This was exactly how it started, and I couldn’t bear to miscarry at work. I was a wreck.
My husband put in a great way as I was talking about how it was “just” dehydration… “Well, it can also kill you, so I’m happy you didn’t go to work today”.
I tried to make him a sandwich for lunch and he took one look at me and told me to go lay down. He also barred me from doing chores since I do have a history of fainting.
I just feel defeated in a way that it was “just” dehydration that took me out and like the only pregnant woman at work struggling.
And also, there is of course an office mean girl at work who just makes me feel unfit for the job anyways and hasn’t stopped going after me even while pregnant.
Just looking for some support.