u/Admirable-Aerie-5478

My ex came to the ski resort I work at. She lives 2+ hours away. She came with her boyfriend literally 2 years from the anniversary date of our break up. It pulled me back like crazy.. my friend texted me and told me she was in the retail shop, I had a customer I was taking care of and saw her.. my hearted was racing.. I ran up to her because that was my person for 12 years.. once I saw her I tapped her shoulder, she instantly covered her face?? Strange I thought at first. Then her boyfriend told me “dude back the eff up seriously.” Then I replied “fuck you” then instantly wanted to fight.. I thought we could’ve had a conversation like adults. I might have been wrong for approaching her but how could I not? I literally turned around and walked away. I was freaking out & had a panic attack. But.. since that day I felt a big sigh of relief. I chose the better route to better myself and not get into anything right away like she did. I see who I am today and I’m proud of all the self reflection I did through out those 2 years. I see that I am happier and better for doing that. I get lonely yes. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t grow from what once was. She still obviously not happy with where she is at in life because a mutual friend told me she hates everything in her life even her new man. But then happens to me see my aunt and tells her she’s very happy? Also my friend send me a screenshot of her looking at her stories on ig. There’s so many different things that I lowkey think she’s trying to some how stay in my life .