I messed up mothers day
I (18f) baked my mother some desserts and picked her flowers yesterday and gave them to her early because she was really excited and didnt want to wait.
Last night we recieved unfortunate news about a loss and shes grieving. Today i havent seen her at all because her door has been closed every time i checked, ive been wanting to see her, but im just so unsure (idk if she was even awake or even wanted to see anyone). So ive been in my room all day.
My dad asked me a question about her and i told i havent seen her today, he was surprised because she was in the garage, (i just didnt hear, ive had headphones in). Even my brother has seen her. I think shes disappointed/upset at me
I feel so guilty and awful, im concerned she thinks i dont care. I dont know what to do, i feel ashamed im the only one who hasnt talked to her today. But also scared of her when i finally do.
I know i messed up real bad, and i dont want to make this about me at all, i shouldve been more proactive. Im scared of her, but i just need perspective and advice when i try to make it up to her.