Mentally Alone
This is hard to put into words, but I just feel so alone around everyone in my life sometimes. I have a bloodwork appointment coming up, I’ve been in remission since August 2025, but I always feel like I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop. I try to open up to my partner but he’s always saying it’s not healthy to think that way. That I should live my life not worrying about cancer which is easy for people to say when they’ve never had it. Then he kind of just walks off or changes the subject. I just hate that cancer has made me feel so emotionally distant from my partner. He says he feels like cancer has changed me in a lot of ways. I started going to therapy and trying to work through all of this, which has helped but idk if it just takes more time for them to like click and understand I just need to talk about it. I’m appreciative that he was so helpful during chemo, but I just feel like there’s a gap between the realities we live in sometimes. Idk just a rant I guess. Cancer makes me feel so alone and getting it young there’s not many people that relate to my story unless it’s on Reddit. Which is great of course to have everyone here, but I just feel like cancer is taking more from my life even after chemo.