6 months past…
It’s weird it’s already been 6 months since we went no contact… the way things ended… God I hate it… I’m still blocked I tried everyday to see if you have lifted the block… some would say why not just make a new account? Why not just find another way? There are so many ways to get in contact but I promised you I would never bother you again… I know some of my promises was empty but this time I mean it… I have to mean it…there is no other option where should be no other option…
I can’t give up on you… I want to say us but idk if that will ever happen… but I want to be there for so much… but I know I can’t when the door is locked… that’s why I try everyday cause there is a hope in me that says maybe you lift the block and I can knock on that door some day…
Look I never told you I love you until the very end… I was stupid, reckless, dumb, loser, a dumb fucking idiot who was selfish when he had it all… and that all was you… and now that you’re gone I feel piece of me gone with that… I’m so sorry for ever breaking your heart my sweet friend… my first connection… my first love…
I love you and I will always do…