I came out to my dad twice and I don't know what to do now.
Okay so I'm FtM (15 years old), and I came out to my dad twice. The first time i did he told me that I was most definitly confused and that I wouldn't start hormones (even thought I never mentioned it). He also said I don't know what it feels like to "be a man" at all, and that I was wrong.
I decided to come out again trying to be clearer and to actually get him to understand my identity (how I feel, pronouns, to not use my deadname, etc.). I did it, and once again, he said I was rushing myself. But this time he told me "Go on, do anything, and your life will instantly be harder". He told me it was better to keep it to myself until I can move out. He also said he wasn't going to use my pronouns, let alone my new name, because he "never uses it when talking about me" (he does). He also said I wasn't "pretending to be a woman" because it was nobody's bussiness to know.
I don't live in the U.S. but I live in a country where being trans is hard regardless. I barely go out and all of my friends know I'm trans. And I was very surprised because I had heard him fight my mom when she said very queerphobic stuff.
I just NEED to cut my hair short at least. I feel like I'm going insane. I just can't keep on like this. Please help T^T.