u/AdTerrible9122

I did not intend to post or think about this topic again, but as I checked my LinkedIn profile views, I noticed my therapist's name came up. I have been actively checking views for at least a year now and this is the first time I see her.

I would not have minded if I had not just terminated her, but this feels like a violation of boundaries. Not only did I terminate the therapeutic relationship, but I specifically asked her to delete all of my information and any data, to which she said she would comply. I am very freaked out someone who has so much knowledge of me (I didn't do anything bad or illegal) is now crossing into my personal life. It made me feel so uncomfortable I immediately blocked her (wish I had taken a screenshot first to document things). I don't have any other public social media pages and LinkedIn is the only one with my image on, something I was reluctant to do.

On a side note, I did google her and tried to see er LinkedIn profile as well because I was trying to make sense of her qualifications even if too late. But I know I used private mode I could not even view her whole profile so I simply just gave up. Unless if I somehow clicked on something by mistake but I highly doubt it. IDK if I am overreacting but I am freaked out.

I posted here a while ago about a disappointing session I had with my therapist that led me to believe it was time to end things. I took a few weeks to cool off, re-read some of our earlier transcripts, and was appalled by the things I accepted back then. From the therapist coming in unprepared, to claiming to have found all the answers from a document I sent about my family relations. She thought it was obvious I needed to be a human rights lawyer, or a spokesperson for women, especially "women from your culture", not to mention the offensively proposed "Do you have crime investigators in your country?" All very othering and completely wrong. I am an engineer!

Anyway I stopped reading to avoid being re-triggered and decided to send a calm but firm termination email. The response felt manipulative to me but I could be wrong. It was definitely her-focused from being "confused", "curious", and "concerned" to asking me to explain why I was upset. I did not want to go through the emotional labor especially knowing I'd probably be met with dismissal or my concerns belittled. The manipulative part is she obviously knew I was upset otherwise she would not have panicked throughout the second half of the session. She also claimed an urgency on my part that was not present in my email. Maybe she was just tired and confused but either way she was not right for me

I am posting this as a form of closure. Thanks to anyone who has read or commented on my first post. I am still a bit angry and sad feeling this therapeutic relationship reflected so many of the behaviors I am trying to recover from facing. I am also relieved and happy I've taken the power back and will be more selective with the people I let into my life.