Hi everyone, I’d like to get some outside perspective.
My ex and I broke up about 53 days ago after a big argument. It was not a clean or easy breakup. We had been through a lot together, including life stress, practical responsibilities, and many emotional ups and downs.
After the breakup, I went into full no contact. I blocked and deleted him first because I was angry, hurt, and wanted to protect myself from more conflict. During the first month, he still tried to reach me indirectly through mutual contacts a few times, mostly when something practical came up.
Later, he also blocked and deleted me. Since then, there had been no real communication between us.
Recently, around day 53 of no contact, I sent him a very small “testing the waters” message/symbol. It wasn’t a long emotional message. I wasn’t begging, blaming, or asking to get back together. I just wanted to see whether there was still any room for normal communication.
After that, he blocked me everywhere.
Now I feel really awful, not necessarily because I want him back, but because the reaction felt so final and cold. It also made me question whether I destroyed my own healing progress by reaching out.
I’m trying to understand this more clearly:
Does blocking everywhere after a small message usually mean the person is completely done?
Could it also mean they are still emotional and trying to protect themselves?
Did I set myself back by breaking no contact?
How do I stop overthinking this and move forward?
I know the healthiest thing is probably to stop reaching out and accept his actions as the answer. I just feel sad and disappointed, and I’d appreciate honest advice or similar experiences.