u/AdShort5093

Me and my husband been married for 11 years. Together 15 . I had 3 kids when we met and I owned a trailer. He moved in with me as he couldn't afford his house on his own he rented. After a year we had our first child together. I then became a stay at home . Our son is autistic I have fought tooth and nail for our son to have the best of doctors, schooling all the above alone without his help. We then had another baby so now we have 5 kids, yes he has raised my other 3 as his who was 6 months , 3,4 when we got together. During our relationship he has always been emotionally , mentally and financially abusive. I've supported him in all his career choices . Going to school having a better career, while I raised all the kiddos an did all house work . Everything is his since he works and I don't in his eyes. I couldn't even get a job if I wanted to he would not like that an then I wouldn't be able to afford daycare anyways on my own . I ended up selling my trailer and took that money for us to buy a house. Its has been nothing but stress and hard being in this marriage . I feel so stuck , now his mother who is a alcoholic lives in our home who also had dementia. I dont wanna care for her bc he allows her to drink still. She is so gross too my kids have seen to much from a person who has never even been in their life . We fight none stop about her and his siblings who had her in so much debt , was giving her drugs and who was waiting for hee husband to die to get all his money . I dont want to deal w them , they are just horrible people me and my husband was never around them to begin with. I want a divorce I want to leave. But how do I pack up 5 kids 2 with disabilities that I fought so hard to be in the school they are in close to our home. I would have to uproot all of them . He refuses to let his mom go with one of his siblings ( yes they would drain her a d dump her in a nursing home ) but thats not my problem. He tells me the house will be his I dont work so nothing is mine . He is never home bc all he does is work. Im left to care for his mom who I dont want to , ontop of my 5 kids. I feel so stuck, I hate being around him and her. My kids dont like her either. She was a horrible mother and alcoholic her whole life. She only did foe her other 2 kids and thier kids and some how we are stuck with her. Im so scared to just leave people tell me dont leave the house. My sons see whats going on no matter how hard I try to hide it . All 5 are boys my older one and thier friends hate how mt husband treats me . He even calls our kids names the mental abuse that he refuses to see. I ha e no clue what to do anymore.