I'm scared of what I'll feel if I stop working towards something
I recently realized I'm very much hypervigilant and that I use productivity and working towards goals as a way to run from the present thanks to my therapist. The thing is, I'm terrified of stopping for even one second. And I don't mean I can't relax with games or my hobbies, but I mean that I'm genuinely really, really scared of just not doing anything at all. I'm terrified of the possibility of bad things happening to the people I love or to myself and I don't have those thoughts if I'm constantly busy, but it's honestly kind of exhausting to live like this. Any advice on how to deal with this? Thanks.