I'm a 31 year old male Indian living in Germany. I was 25 when I realised I was attracted to men despite having relationships with women. I was in a live in relationship with a man but I felt completely out of place. I had to break up and met another girl who accepted that I had a past with men. At the beginning of the relationship she said she is ok with me hooking up with men, later said that she is ok as long as she doesn't know about my flings and now she mentioned that she doesn't want me to ruin the relationship with me hooking up with someone.
We are very well invested in supporting each other but neither can my sexual appetite be totally satisfied by a woman nor I'm capable of settling emotionally with a man.
I'm very much confused and I want to seek help