u/AdMassive8666

Recently I saw an reel about not beeing the anybodys 1st choice which is a big fear of mine. It triggert a chain of thoughts about why Im so investet in my friends problems without feeling like beeing the 1st choice of them.

My solution is: Im just really bad at manipulating :) Im trying so hard to influence the people in my friendgroup and the fact that Im nobodys 1st choice is killing me. I started to stop eating or to refuse to do things that make me happy, because I thought maybe I will suffer so obviously that they will stay cause they see my suffering. Stopping to eat to suffer more is in my head the only way to get the attation i need

Is this just the fear of somebody who has commitment issues?