First of all huge thanks to everyone who takes the time to read this and comment — I really appreciate it..
I’m 21M and pretty introverted. And i’ve never been in a relationship.
In my life until 12th grade, I basically had zero interaction with girls. I studied in a small border town where most people chose a different language stream, and the one I chose had only about 8–9 students total, all boys. So I grew up without any normal interaction with female classmates. On top of that, my parents have always had a rough relationship. They fight a lot, and I’ve never really seen them act like a happy couple — no laughing together, no going out, nothing. I don’t know if that affected me, but I feel like I never learned what a healthy relationship looks like. I think that I’m not even scared of rejection. If I really wanted to, I think I could get a girlfriend eventually. My real fear is what happens after that.
I genuinely don’t know how to maintain a relationship.
Like what do you even talk about regularly? How do you keep things going? What does a relationship look like on a day to day basis?
It feels completely alien to me. I have this constant thought that even if I do get into a relationship, she’ll eventually leave because I won’t be a good boyfriend.
Even talking to girls without any attraction or intention of relationship feels awkward and forced.
Lately this has been bothering me more, especially because even my friends who are more introverted than me have girlfriends, text girls online, and talk to girls casually. I’m not sure what exactly I’m doing wrong or what I’m missing.