I wish I had friends
So I 18f have never had many friends. I think I’ve only had one friend in my life and that was in fourth grade. She was the best, and I loved her so much. However after she moved away only a year later I’ve never had a friend.
Now I’ve met people again but it usually was just acquaintances. I haven’t talked to someone genuinely in almost three years now. Never sat down and just talked. That’s all I want is to talk, maybe hang out at a park and play card games. That’s all I want. I just want someone to be by my side when I go out for the day and just walk around or sit at the park and watch the water from the pond. Sometimes I wish I could cry on someone shoulder because I don’t want to feel alone, I just want to be seen again and not just this invisible person.
I do wish it was easy to talk to people. But I know I’m not the most attractive person, I know I’m socially awkward, and I know that I also have severe social anxiety. Maybe I ask for too much, but sometimes even if not a friend I had a dog or cat but with my living situation I can’t have pets.